Sunday, January 15, 2012

How can you make a person less argumentative?

I really really hate my dad. He's a bipolar mess I no longer want to handle. He needs a lesson in anger management because he's causing a household crisis and he doesn't even realize it. For the past 17 years I've been an obedient daughter. I'd look to the ground and stay quiet and avoid arguments with him even though I knew he was wrong. He always criticizes me and creates conflicting "rules" I cannot follow. I get into trouble for things I cannot control, like the amount of books I have?! the time I go to the bathroom?! the amount of calls I get!? the time I stay up late doing homework? and the time I shower!?! ---the last i can control, but seems to as petty and pointless. I'm a nerd, I want to be an engineer and I've already received at least one admission letter and money to go to that school. Basically I need to wait it our this last senior year before I forever leave this ominous house. I got calls at night from my bf and so they took away my phone, I didn't complain or fuss, I'm fine with it considering he and my parents are the only ones I communicate with on the phone anyways. I stayed after school for a club and called him from my friend's phone to pick me up, he said he'd be there at 4:30. I lost track of time and wasn't at the place he'd pick me up from till 5. Called again and he screams and makes a fuss that it's all my fault. I exploded, unlike any other day. I used to wait HOURS after school to the point where Id fall asleep on a window sill outside the school and he's complaining because of 30 minutes? He always insults me and yells at me and has the most ridiculous thoughts, not wanting me to go to college and saying that I'm too much like a guy the way I dress or that I'm some ungrateful monster. He called me a monster. Well, guess who raised this monster. I'm really angry. It's kind of funny that he can't do much to punish me...considering hw is all I do. He was not going to drive me to my SAT subject test on Saturday, so i took my bike but had to come back because it broke down (bad luck) and then he blew up on me and grudgingly took me to my test center. I'm turing 18 in two weeks and want to run away. I wouldn't mind being homeless, hell I ven have it all planned out. Free breakfast and lunch at school. Shower in the PE showers. Do hw in the park and mall (which all just so happen to be close to each other) and sleep where ever until school again. I feel like a hypocrite living in his house and my hate is only growing. Help?

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